Touching Grass
Happy earth month 🌎
With AI advancing at a relentless pace and technology creeping into every corner of our lives, the world is starting to feel unreal. Our generation has spent decades automating and digitizing everything — entertainment, shopping, jobs, art, even companionship — to the point where you can sustain an entire life just staring at screens. Dystopian? Most definitely. And yet, I refuse to spiral into dystopian dread. Amidst all the noise, I choose to stay optimistic about the human parts of life that no machine could ever replace.
Spending time with a baby is the perfect antidote. A baby is the most natural, raw, and pure thing in existence, the living embodiment of what it means to be human. My daughter exists entirely in the present. She can only be entertained in the moment, reacting in real time as I make silly faces and babble sounds at her until she breaks into a smile. She loves everything humans are biologically wired to love: faces, voices, music, movement, the outdoors, physical touch, our mere presence. She is endlessly curious, always wriggling out of my arms to grab whatever catches her eye. She is untainted by the world, and she never fakes an emotion. There is nothing money, the internet, or AI can offer her, which says everything about how little those things actually matter.
I see the sparkle in her eyes when she discovers something new, like a ballpoint pen. Something so mundane to us is absolutely fascinating to her. When she finally wiggles her way within reach, she picks up the pen with her whole fist, and waves it around like a baton for a few glorious seconds. She then breaks out into a full-body wiggle, excitedly flails all her limbs at once, and grins up at me like she's just found treasure. Joy really is that simple. How did we forget?
It's easy to lose sight of how good the simple stuff can be. Presence, sensation, connection — these aren't luxuries, they're the foundation of living. Food, nature, real conversation, moving your body, making mistakes… the most ordinary things in the world are also the most essential, and they always have been. No technological advancement will ever replace them. In a world designed to make us forget that, we have to choose to remember.
Exhaustion and joy somehow live side by side. I love this newfound strength I’ve discovered within myself.
Throughout life, we go through seasons that ebb and flow, characterized by different wants, needs, priorities, and challenges. What would that look like mapped out?
Some days I feel like I’m crushing it. And other days, I’m holding a hollering baby while bouncing on a yoga ball at 3am, begging her to stop crying while falling apart myself.
Learning Photoshop, buying a domain name, getting laid off, and other failures that defined my life and turned it for the better.
“It almost seems like you’re not giving yourself the permission to be happy,” she says.
I think if we get anything out of this year. It’s that we can live our lives a little more calmly, a little more authentically.
In times of distress, we can complain about the unjust nature of the world, or we can see the situation from a place of positivity and gratitude.
I love being a woman. I love digging deep into my insecurities and sharing my vulnerability with other women who feel the same internal struggles and anxieties. But it hasn’t always been easy.
Now that I’m in my mid-20s, I’m getting much closer to becoming the woman I want to be.
I started to redefine myself through my own eyes by my own standards. No longer comparing myself to others, I took notice of my own life's highlights and the only person I care about sharing it with is myself.
[Art] can reawaken us to the genuine merit of life as we're forced to lead it. It's advertising for the things we really need.
These past two years or so I've never lived in a place for longer than five months. I've learned to be okay living a modern nomadic lifestyle.
It's not about what you want and your tastes. It's about what others need and how you fill in that void by being professional and extraordinary in your services.
I choose to believe life is a journey. Its thrill is in the adventure, the climb, not the destination. And here I am just starting mine. I have no idea what's next, but I'm willing to take on the adventure.
22 is such an uncertain time. Without school, there's no longer a path for me to follow. With my formal and informal education, what do I have to offer the world? Is being self-taught enough to allow for success? How do I go about starting my dream?
Natural is beautiful. Authenticity is beautiful. Emotions are beautiful. Vulnerability is beautiful. Confidence is beautiful. Overcoming pain and hardship is so immensely beautiful.
This election definitely isn't the worst thing that's ever happened to you, and you can't let it destroy you, but rather motivate you to work harder for what you believe in. But more importantly, educate yourself. There's always more than you know.
Natural (adj): Being accordance with or determined by nature. Not containing extra substances or anything artificial.
What does it mean to be a professional? Can I turn my passions into a career? Will that career satisfy me and fulfill my soul? There's so much pressure, so much discomfort, so much fear.
Not everything can be documented in photos. The taste of gelato on a hot summer day, the crazy bicycling incident, the feel of the Mediterranean Sea, the butterflies in your stomach, the brief but interesting exchanges with locals, and the messy parts in life...occurrences like these can only be felt in the moment and logged into your memory bank to become stories to tell. And surprisingly, the things that go unphotographed are the things I remember best.
It's up to us to figure out how to live in harmony with one another, learn to accept and understand each other, open our minds, and stop using things like religion as excuses to fight our own kind. Look at the big picture. We're all human. We're one.
Being away from a home and in so many foreign places everyday was both physically and mentally draining, and I wanted to clear out some cluttered thoughts consuming my mind these past few days.
Spending time with a baby is the perfect antidote to all this AI addiction.