Lately I've found myself uninspired by photography. I know these ruts happen to all creatives, but it's concerning because this is a time in my life where I'm deciding what career to pursue after school.
Just two months ago I was crazy about photography, doing four photoshoots a week, and posting my work, and blogging about it. But soon enough, it got repetitive and I was (and still am) jaded. Besides the occasional photo repost by the model, I don't receive any acknowledgment for the art I produce, and it's really unmotivating. I didn't go to school for art. I'm just faking my way through it. There are only so many resources and guidance available at a polytechnic university. I don't know how to value my own creations or take pride in it unless other people show interest. So therefore I've lost interest.
The photography world is changing daily due to social media. Because that's where we seek validation now, and "popular" art is now apparently "good" art. It's a world where very young teenagers without formal art education can pick up a camera and become a photographer. And it's a world that doesn't make sense to me. It seems superficial and shallow. Everyone just wants to become viral nowadays. People no longer have to work their way to the top, and just create to please others. It's anything but art.
And I wanted to go into fashion photography, so badly. I've always loved fashion magazines and editorial spreads. But even fashion is being taken over by the social media world of "bloggers" and "influencers." Everybody and their mother is trying to sell products and lifestyles and themselves. And I'm just so tired of it. The fact that they've been taking over the fashion world, which comes from a rich history of art and garment-making, and turning it into #ootd's that no one can afford. And because of that, I don't want to get sucked into this industry. Because there are many more important things and problems in world than matching your coffee to your purse and shoes. Fashion is a profession. Personal style is not.
Anyway, I don't know what I want to do with my life. I want my career to be more meaningful than #instastyle #outfitpost #thatsdarling #fashiongram... If anyone's reading this, guidance would be great. Cool thanks, ta ta for now.
[Photos are some food photography I did for work recently that has inspired me and given me more pride that the portraits I've been taking. Isn't that sad? Clearly I need help.]